That 25 things on facebook because I know next to no one will read it here

1. I know that nothing can be changed, but god would I love to change it.
2. I am simultaneously talented and inadequate in every talent I pursue; Jack of all trades, master of none. There is always someone better than me.
3. I have a million things to say all at the wrong time. It is starting to bleed through and it is another thing I hate about myself.
4. I love free time but I'm glad I don't have it. I always settle into thought and that is something I've come to dread.
5. I'm writing this on my iPod.
6. I want to wake up dead. To never worry again is the best thing I can think of right now.
7. I always have something up my ass. Never has nothing been bothering me. Every day is another sequence of hours for me to add to that list and solve nothing. I am not the only one with this affliction.
8. I feel no accomplishment, recently.
9. Progress is relative.
10. I am an idiot within myself. I wish I could be perfectly objective and wise about everything.
11. I love dreams. They're like nightly adventures, even when they're tragedies.
12. There is a word bank where, when I hear any of the words from it in any way, it ruins that moment for me. Subsequently, I can no longer listen to much of my ipod.
13. There is only terror.
14. I hate being online or around people reading my blog. I feel like an outsider amidst their thoughts and my words.
15. I need menial tasks to keep my sanity. Like writing the same thought on my paper for hours.
16. I can only eat gummy vitamins. It's pretty cool.
17. I truly believe myself to be fucking retarded, socially.
18. I cannot stand the feeling of lying. Even about small things.
19. There is no feeling like plummeting toward the ground in an airplane, even for less than half a second.
20. I have not felt alive in over a year.
21. I need to go to bed, but I'm not.
22. I hate typing roleplay, but I continue to rp on my phone.
23. Media makes me sad because I wish I could relate to it.
24. I don't know what to do.
25. I'm never tired until I yawn. Oo