nobody is home...

where did they go?

(I had a way then losing it all on my own
I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown
And I'm not sleeping now the dark is too hard to beat
And I'm not keeping now the strength I need to push me

You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine It when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone

'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me home
Calling, calling, calling home
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone)

^^^ellie goulding, bassnectar remix ftw

less cute

eventually, I will
open
like a can of pringles
or maybe like
a performance
on ice

you know what?

Love is not real, nor does it have longevity.
Relationships don't make any sense.

there, I said it.

this

has been horrifically stressful for no reason.

winter needs to slow down

I am so many kinds of tired.
It sinks into the crevices of my soul,
settling in between the rocks and the bricks there.
It is wet like mortar, after a time
and holds me fast, together.
I subsist on ashes, drinking it in
but it's slowly eroding at my lungs and my stomach.
I am so, so many kinds of tired
and it is wearing me too thin
like a hoodie I never like to wear
because it doesn't keep me warm anymore.

Not Tonight

Not gonna sing a lie tonight
nothing about roses, nothing about candlelight
no forced rhymes, no subtle smiles
no hidden kisses
tonight, I won't do it.
Not gonna sing a lie tonight
hope, promiscuity, interwoven heartbreak
something here, something there, something of interest
she's the one, I'm for fun, something simply must be done
nope, none of that bullshit
not singing about it tonight.
Not gonna sing a lie tonight
no jumpy happiness, no droopy sadness
no affairs, no festivals, no flowers
no sunsets, no umbrellas, no dinners
nothing to celebrate
nothing to liberate
nothing to demonstrate
not tonight.
Not gonna sing a lie tonight
so I won't sing at all.

nothing is sacred.

Everything is interrupted
disfigured, ugly and
malformed.